Fatherhood

On June 21st, my life changed forever. There is not much to describe the birth of a child. It is an exciting, horrifying, and nerve-wracking experience. There are late nights, very early morning, lots of diaper changes and bottle feedings. No matter what one does in life, it is incredibly humbling. You see this being, who is entirely dependent on you, and you can't help but want to give him or her everything you have. This is the concept of unconditional love.

It was a period of huge adjustment. Thankfully, I was put on a light rotation, which allowed me to spend time at home and be available on the weekends. The highlight was being able to go back to California for Eid and spend time with family. Now with my own family, I'm starting to see my priorities. No matter how bad work can be, I know who is waiting at home, and that is all the matters.

For the time being, I'll be on my own. ICU starts tomorrow and I won't be around much. And when I am, I'll be exhausted. We figured it wouldn't be good to have two babies at home. So I'll be in Philly with the family stays in California and maintains the help they'll need for the next few weeks. I find myself missing them more and more. I also find my life to be a little boring without them here. I caught up on Game of Thrones and watched a lot of Twitch, but I found myself trying to go outside to keep from going stir-crazy.

I finally got back into playing some hockey this week. On Friday, I made it out to a roller hockey rink in the suburbs. There was a decent amount of players, but there was a lack of goalies. I also found myself really taking a step back in skating. I didn't want to hockey stop and I missed being able to use my edges. I felt slow, and was slipping on my wheels while trying to accelerate. This morning, I made it out to ice pick-up and I actually felt more comfortable. I was able to move and stop without issue. I'll guess I'll be switching to ice permanently.


I also ordered a bunch of new hockey gear, thanks to Hockey Giant and Hockey Tron. I'll be awaiting my new toys in the mail very soon, which includes a great deal on a new APX2.

Spring Time

Four months since my last post. Seems like a lot has happened in the mean time. We moved to a new apartment with a gym, doorman, and central air. Didn't know how important these luxuries were until I finally have them. It's a joy to order a ton of shit online and not have to worry about who is going to pick it up. Ordered an XBox, well worth it, not sure if I'll have time to enjoy it in the future, but it works for now.

Finished my three weeks of triage, which made me an angry person. Don't know how I'm going to do it again next year, but I'll have to fight through. I was a glorified secretary working at the pleasure of the ED and flow center. I felt powerless and had no real back-up throughout.

Weather is finally warming up, which means festival and garden time. These six months are the best in the city and with the new addition (iA), we're excited to do a lot of exploring. There is going to be a serious lack of sleep and a lot of stress, but I'm excited to take on the challenge. Making the crib was one of the "real" moments so far. I'm looking forward to more in the future.